My Journeys into conscious evolution – Part 3
This is part of a series of documents I am writing on consciousness. The information is not designed to provoke an argument just healthy discussion and thought. The idea should be seen as no more than a collection of ideas and wondering thoughts, for those who are interested. Enjoy
You are asleep, wake up. For the sake of your own life and the lives of those close to you, I beg you to wake up, if you remain asleep your life will be a long and drawn out waste of time. Fact. The longer you sleep the less you think and the less you think the deeper you will sleep. For some perhaps sleeping a lifetime away sounds like a blessing, anything to escape the pain and struggle of their existence. The irony is that the pain and struggle of life is itself a product of your slumber. The prophecy is self-fulfilling. Your sleep may take many forms and functions, your daily grind and lifestyle obsessions, lifestyle addictions and insecurities riddle every choice and action. Even things that seemingly make you feel good in a physiological way are part of the greater sedative to real thinking. Each vice however common or socially acceptable or unacceptable plays a part in sustaining the deep and unending sleep of your rational mind and your true potential. Imagine for a moment there was a true potential inside you capable of massive sweeping change, influence and control over each and every part of your existence….
For many right now a trigger clicks inside your mind and slowly a defence mechanism winds into motion, these comments producing an intellectual challenge to the ego’s internal defence grid, the attachment to a life and lifestyle we feel content or comforting can not surely be an enemy within the safety of the gates of all we hold dearly. How can it be possible that things so innocent and enjoyable could be damaging to us. How can it be that so many people do these things and just a handful seem to see a demon where others see merely ‘just the way things are’…..
Why is it that people like me persist on rocking a boat that seems to float so well? After all; we have all we need and surely the worries around the world are just other people’s problems and nothing to do with ours? Surely the wealth of time, money, celebrity endorsements, the overwhelming advertising, support of men in suits and clean white smiles demonstrates substance and trust in what we consume at every level? After all, surely we must need somebody to tell us what’s going on and what we need and why?
We know, well at least a growing minority of people know, that things are wrong. In fact almost every person I have ever met at all levels of society knows that things are wrong. The usual responses to this type of suggestion are met with a limited range of responses. “There’s nothing we can do about it”, “my life is full of so much stress already I don’t have time to worry about those issues” or there is some kind or regurgitation of spin, mixed with ‘ego’ rationalisation of ideas as a form of justification for remaining asleep. Another very typical response is that “no one wants to spend time worrying about those things, just enjoy life whilst you can”….
Enjoying life is exactly what I do, and have done for a very long time, Thank you ? Sadly the social addiction to materialism, drugs, drink, television and the trapping of emotional weakness are not what I consider fun. True feelings of peace and levity are something that most people go through life only dreaming about. And as I mentioned before the connection to this sleeping lifestyle are quite simply the self fulfilling prophecy.
I do not worry or waste unnecessary energy and emotion on these things in my life, I am fortunate to be able to document my experiences and ideas, and in the same way as I have been touched by authors work and experiences I have had, bringing about gradual change and understanding, my instinct is to leave these discoveries for others to find.
Where I used to feel sad and helpless to help the people around me to change and adapt I soon realised that this is in fact counter productive. ‘The beauty and power of the sun and stars is there if you only look up, if you live a life with your head down, all you will ever see is your feet’. You have to want to look up.
Most people go through life suffering for the most part with happy moments making up just a fraction. You even find people who are so overtly happy in appearance that they hide a greater pain inside. You see people with wealth and power who live a life at arms length to anything real, hiding behind material things and a paper-thin ego built through fear. You see people so paralysed by fear or change or the unknown that they live in the shadow of themselves. You find people so hopelessly dependent of sadness and addiction that it has become more normal and satisfying that feeling happy and moments of happiness cause pain.
There is not magic or secret to changing these ways. There’s no hand of god to touch the few and bless them with foresight. Changing your life and your thoughts is easy. The moment you commit to the changes they begin to happen. Feeling good and thinking differently is not the gift of the rich and intelligent, in fact in the most cases they are the worst victims of all. You are in total control of your body and mind; you just simply have to learn to understand that. You don’t need a Guru or healer, you dont need a doctor or hypnotist to show you either, all they can do is guide you to fixing yourself.
I grew up in a community where different, meant odd, was taught in catholic schools where alternative ideas were redundant. There was no nurturing for what you felt, just what you should think. No support for a challenging person, just a challenge to bring them in line. I lived for the most part in and around people and places with no foresight or ambition. And was guilty at a young age of resisting my own individuality and instincts in order to make friends and be understood.
I listened to adults who spoke of small-minded ideas and feared the unknown yet professed to know the way of the world. I realise now that this is due to a fear of their own individuality, maintaining the social norm and sticking with the herd.
I spent a long time daydreaming in between my sleepy existance. The daydreams I now understand were the only times I was awake as a child. I don’t resent any experience or regret anything, as I was responsible for it all, personal weakness, fear and doubt controlled the way I acted, and my actions were what the universe reacted to. And however hard the lessons I had to learn as a child, I now see even the harshest moments were tests. You will notice if you look around that terrible things create great people, but if you remain asleep and no not realise you are great, terrible things will destroy you.
Now using a term like ‘great ‘ as a self-description may to some seem egotistical, it is in fact the complete opposite in this respect, as everyone is great! You just have to choose to accept that. It is the very thoughts of hatred and negativity to and about us that is part of the sleep. Its projecting ideas about ourselves into others minds again that fulfils the prophecy, your in control of that as well. So once you think, actually I am ‘great’ then others will also.
This concept is a tough one for many as the self hatred and belief of themselves as anything at all, is so overpowering, from bullying to physical or emotional weakness, addiction and misfortune, many people like a magnet attract these negative ideas in every experience they have. Even now some reading this will instantly feel opposed to this as they are so riddled with self-hatred and doubt that this idea may swell with an emotion they have suppressed and they resist this emotional response. Perhaps no one has told you how important or special you are, or that they love or respect you…. but if you don’t do this yourself, why expect anyone else to feel that way.
Some will turn to God or Gods in the traditional formalised sense and seek a last-ditch salvation and explanation for their despair. Seek love in an inanimate object or idea to offer salvation. Some will look to fall into the arms of another for support, this unfortunately brings new problems, perhaps not immediately- The problem with bringing half a person to a relationship is that relationship will be built on the co dependency and never an equal and fruitful arrangement. History will repeat itself and more damagingly manifest in parenting.
The problems do not go away they just adapt and wait until a moment of weakness or suffering call them back to the surface. Many, many people know this and relationships roll on in defiance of solving the problem, contributing it to ‘the way life is’. Safe and content to compare to another similar problem in they’re peers. Two wrongs don’t make it right! Because somebody else has the same issue doesn’t make it ok. People should not take comfort in the regularity if familiarity of people’s suffering; they should take warning from it.
People like to give problems complexity and diversity. To offer demographical or race and colour issues to problems to give them more political weight or social significance. Others just like to celebrate their problems and sensationalise them. For some the greatest challenge is a mere pebble in a stream and in comparison for the next man the pebble in the stream could be a mountain.
In my observation and direct experience I have seen that in each of these cases the greatest and most amazing contrast can be found. For instance the person who seemingly has everything and access to anything, with opportunity all around them can very often be incapable of the handling the most basic of problems. In the same respect the most intelligent and inspired genius of mind can often not see a way through a very basic problem. In comparison the most humble and meek often expresses the most true and honest demonstrations of generosity and caring for even a stranger.
These analogies of people seem to work for the same model in businesses and corporations. I will come back to this in later blogs ?.
To continue, the conclusion I draw from these situations and observations is that there is a sliding scale, classless and not constrained to any particular demographic, colour or intelligence. The same problems manifest in different ways but they are all the same problem. The more we seek to specialise the approach to solving the problem the less likely we are to really change the whole. Human beings need love, human beings need space, human beings need good food and water and human beings need communication. We have been lead to believe that we need more, and in fact forced to need more by the system we live in. Despite the system’s existence, the fact remains that it is not a necessity to human existence. (At least not in its current form). The system does not work, the economy is manipulated not organic and the life support system of the planet we are part of is changing. I’ve read the facts and the spin and I’ve heard both sides of the corporation and environmental stories, I cannot trust the media and I cannot trust the profit making corporations, not merely because of misinformation but because of my instincts, not my ego or my desires, but my instincts.
The true feeling that, this is not right and has not been right for a very, very long time has been felt again and again all over the world and will forever amongst in small pockets and individual thought. In many cases its pained as a threat or anomaly to the seemingly natural flow of the system…the system is far from natural, so how do you expect to dwell inside it and feel natural…if we listed the problems we have with this system and projected similarity onto another species on this planet, we would consider it a species slowly destroying itself…
To tie this into the original thoughts, it is the very feeling that the system of things is wrong, perpetuates the fear and doubt in the individual. The same contempt and anonymity we demonstrate to what goes on around us and too us is the same as doing it to ourselves. You cant run from it as your instincts will tell you.
No matter what you chose to quiet that nagging sensation that; maybe I shouldn’t do that, say that, allow that to happen…the reflex works universally as well and effect the whole. So if we have a critical mass of people both hating themselves and ignoring the lager picture we have in effect a planet of sleeping conscious-less consumers, chomping and fighting and hating their way through a nightmare until they die, enjoying mere moments of happiness along the way. Never realising the true potential they have as individuals as well as a group.
I have digressed somewhat so I will get back on track. The overarching point I guess I’m trying to make is that the individual is ‘great’ and once we look at ourselves that way and treat ourselves that way it will be very hard for the self destructive systems to dominate us and for corruption to hinder our progress, on a grander scale. This self empowering with create pockets as those around you react and begin to manifest into groups and larger still communities. Then who knows…. If we can already find a common friend and solace in groups with common problems and doubts, surely then we can find common groups with belief and aspiration. For those so paralysed by fear of major changes and insecurity of the unknown… evolution proves to us that this mindset will bring about your extinction. Change and adaptation is inevitable or the organism will die.
We can’t allow ourselves to spend the majority of our waking life asleep, suppressing our mind with games, television and entertainments; we can’t sedate our real feelings, intuition and potential with drink, drugs and addictions. And destroy our bodies in pursuit of self-perfection or self-destruction. You have to see through the lies and use your instincts, use you ability to make real contact with those around you and the planet, try for one day to take away everything that feels un-natural to your existence, sit against a tree or next to a river, just take ten minutes alone in nature or stop and look up at the clouds on a sunny day. There is so much perfection and greatness in each and everything that you will feel a connect, sooner or later you will feel it…and that is real…that is awake….that is the first step……Otherwise so long as the system can corrupt and capitalise on you, tell you what to do , think, feel and say. Predict your ideas to a finite number of options…this will continue to be so…..wake up. 
